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Another Restless Night I can see that Christmas affected me a lot this year--both in some good ways and in some not-so-good ways. I suppose what got me off my feed so much was that I came too close to an emotional place that meant so much to me in the past and then had to deal with the certain knowledge that that place no longer has the same joy--going there can be painful these days. Painful and lonely. There are other places of joy, still, to be sure, but not that one. Ah, well. I'll get through the romance that I always associate with New Year's Eve and then maybe I can try refitting the blinders for another stretch. It doesn't help that I'm still moving the last remaining things over from the apartment, making decisions about which parts of my past history I want to try preserving, and which parts I should let recede into oblivion. Lots of bittersweet emotions these last few weeks. We used to have New Year's Eve parties occasionally. This year's will be a very quiet affair--I probably won't even be awake at midnight. But maybe next year I'll be brave enough to try another. It's worth a thought. Well, it's about 2:30 in the morning here. I woke up and had trouble getting back to sleep. Guess I'll try again. |
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12/31/2006 8:48 am |
Chris I too can sense what you are feeling although I don't know your story .. Having been widowed twice in four years, the memories are bittersweet and Christmas Holidays are not the joyous shared times they once were. Take heart in that we gain better coping skills as time goes on. My very best wishes to you for a happier and healthy 2007. Hugs to you. Lulu
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Happy New Year Chris...may you find peace in 2007. Ann
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