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life???? I have come to realize that life is short and many dont find it too easy to laugh and be themselves anymore. I for one have many many faults, starting with being born a male and not female. I also had too many foster homes. and had the great state of Wisconsin raise me in many different hospitals because I would not conform. I was a rebel with a cause and this I freely admit to. I did time and that is neither here nor there, just a fact of life. I am a recovering alcoholic and proud of it. What people in here and out here think of me is none of my business. If it makes them happy to make little of me so be it. I can take it. I suffer from heart desease now with other factors thrown in but I am fighting the good battle even if I do not want to. I was raised with a backbone to deal with it at any cost Now to this small letter to my friends. I am happy to have you as friends. Many of you , I have not met and only wish I could get the chance. Time and my higher power can only decide that. You all have stood with me through these 6 years of hell for me and continue to do so. For this I am grateful. you all have made me smile when things were dark and not very bright. All I can say is thanks. you are all part of heavens angels. as for my so called enemies in sff, so be it. even you are blessed with some good parts, even if it is only to make me laugh at you for being the way you are towards others. you see, I have walked many paths in my life and all they have done is make me stronger in believing in myself. that is life for me. I come in and talk to help myself and try to make friends knowing that to most, sff is nothing but a play pen and they arent telling any truths. for the few and again I say few, this room is a way of talking to friends made and kept even though we are many miles apart. This is what life is about. Yes sff is for Seniors with dating experience. It is also a friend finder first. for that is the key for dating and whatever follows. I dont look for any \bsexo?\b in here as it is not my priority, but for those who it is, so be it. I do not really cut you down. . I look at all of you as friends who have different lives, outlooks, and all that goes with it, but I will stand up for anybody ,MALE OR FEMALE, who is being judged by others who havent walked in their shoes. I am who I am and none of you casn change that. I only can and I choose to stay the way I am. maybe to some i whine a lot about my deseases but that is my way of getting it out.If you cant stand it, please refrain from doing yourselves injustice by cutting me down as then i am only going to let my walls down and tell you off. I am normally a happy go lucky man and have fun. When one is hurting, I try to talk to that person with what I have gone through, not to show that I have gone through worse but that I can feel some of what they are going through. To you who find me just a rotten cantankerous old fart, thanks. You who think I am a nice guy, thanks. I try to live that down. . lololol Please remember that I dont try to be who you wnat me to be. I dont kiss any \bass\b except for Snotts. She is my queen and boss. I will not quote any book or person except myself. and this I say unto one and all, even myself. Please dont judge me in your shoes. I will not foit in them. I walk my own path, be it good or bad. My jugdement is mine and mine alone. I just try to be me and you all have helped in that. thanks for being you. Terry/testfo |
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I will repeat what I said in chat tonight...you are nice in my book. You have always been nice to me so that makes you NICE. I have wondered how you were and how your tests went in Cleveland. Tonight was the first time I had seen you for some time. Talk all you want about how you feel, if they don't want to listen...so be it. If we are in the rooms at the same time (I am trying to get back in more often), talk about how you are feeling. I do care! Ann is your friend I hope!!!  Ann p.s. who is Snotts?
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9/17/2006 7:34 pm |
Terry.. I am proud to call you my friend.. I think you are one of the truest people on here.. by true I mean.. someone who is a stand up kind of guy.. someone who tells ya like it is..and can still joke and laugh with you.. sometimes on this internet.. typing you can't grasp the real person.. I had the pleasure of meeting you in person..laughing.. joking.. talking.. sharing.. you are a wonderful man..  backbone and all..  lol.. and boyyyy what a wiggle ya got.. lol.. ok..ok.. don't thank me now.. lol.. You know in my heart of hearts.. I love ya.. and I pray for you daily.. you know.. a friend you will always have in me.. and I believe the same from you.. (now don't burst my bubble here!) lol.. You are someone I believe if they got to know you in person.. everyone would feel the same way.. Hugss Terry.. all will be good.. I know it! I believe it! I feel it! Have a rest-filled night my friend.. Gina ___________ Find the humor each day holds.... Gina
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9/17/2006 10:02 pm |
hugsssssss test ya ole cheesehead. i luv you muchly..and think you would feel better if you were in MN and away from the limbuger smell. dont change who you are for anyone, cause those of us who know you luv you the way you r. just keep fighting th good fight..we r here for you!! kelly aka saucy
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9/18/2006 2:32 am |
hugs testfo. I care and know what a BIG heart you have. Theresa
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9/18/2006 5:59 am |
Abelle, jes, june luvtolaugh,theresa, and Saucy. thanks friends. this was not a solisitation for friends. i just spoke my mind. I feel that the rooms have become a battleground. It was never meant for that. Abelle, Snot is my loving cat. lolol i named her that as it was the first th8ng she did when i got her. she snotted me. hence the name. See, I am weird. lololol Again thanks.Terry/ testfo
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9/18/2006 10:07 am |
Testfo, Although we haven't chatted, I have seen and heard about your medical issues. My best to you. I agree with Mr. Elusive in saying that what is in the pasy should remain there. Who and what you are today is what matters. NickiGal
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Terry, hon, just go on being your sweet little self. You're a survivor, so just do it, man.
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9/18/2006 5:42 pm |
terry we all have our own burdens life is full of them heres a big hug to a very nice man, yes i said it very nice and sweet take care my friend ingrid 
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