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Ponderings on 12 Step Recovery I had turned 21 and was FINALLY old enough to legally drink. I was at my Girlfriend's House - reading the Big Book that she acquired while drinking a glass of wine. Most of the time, I drank Vodka stright out of the bottle. My girlfriend thought that she might be an Alcoholic and WOULD I be willing to give her support by going to meetings with her. Nancy, a woman at the Beauty College that Sharon and I were both attending - talked to Becky who obiviously need help about A.A. My friend Sharon overheard the message and invited me to go along. I went to meetings with Sharon. Sharon decided that she wasn't an Alcoholic after all. I quickly concluded that I was an Alcoholic and Stayed. I started going to meetings and discovered that the boyfriend that I met in a bar was in AA. I also concluded the Country Singer was a controlling abusive schmuck and dumped him. He was just looking for an easy bootie call. Alcoholism is not a sin but that doesn't mean sobriety is a virtue. That guy was a drunk schmuck who turned into a sober schmuck. So............. I was old enough to LEGALLY Start Drinking but Opted to STOP Drinking instead. Granted, I was a Mickey Mouse Drunk compared to other folks. I had enough close calls due to alcohol to conclude that that Path I walking was not a good path. So by choosing a life of sobriety - I've avoided Legal Problems, Family Problems, Health Problems and premature aging. Sobriety is not instant Sainthood. I've made some stupid choices but at least I have the tools to learn from those stupid choices and do better the next time. The Love of my Life was Pyscho with all his Harleys and Black Leather. He was President of the Los Angeles Fifth Chapter Biker Club. This was a Biker Group for 12 Steppers. So I didn't have to be Ms. Goodie Two Shoes just because I sobered up. Yea Ha! I even found out that I could be a Hoochie Kooctcy Dancer Sober. I DID get busted for it and had to do Community Service. I DIDN'T Marry Pyscho and the two marriage that I did have eventually went South. Life on Life's Terms. Alcoholism is not a sin but it certainly can make us a menance to society and our family. Sobriety is a not virtue but it does take work to find recovery. It means taking responsibility for our own screw-ups, acknowledging our shortcomings and when wrong promptly admitting it. Blaming others is not an option. Recovery means reaching out for something stronger than we are. A Power greater than ourselves. Yahweh, Yeshua, God, Jesus, Buddah, Grandfather Creator, Mother Gaia - Electricity, Nature, Ad Infintum. Abracadabra  |
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10/27/2008 8:18 am |
I was a pretty mild drunk compared to many people, but bad enough that it was certainly causing problems. Glad I stopped. I've done things since then that I could only dream about. Sobriety doesn't rid life of all problems, but it does make existence a good deal easier in the long run. The first couple of years of sobriety were somewhat trying, but I got through them and discovered a new way of living.
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10/27/2008 7:46 pm |
Another good blog, Star, you're on a roll. I very seldom drink alcohol, just a social drinker. My father was an alcoholic--when he died my brother didn't cry but I did. I'm happy for you.
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10/28/2008 6:19 am |
I couldn't disagree with you blog more, I do commend you for not drinking. Alcoholism is a disease. Get that through all of your heads. There are vast differences between alcoholics and drunks.
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10/29/2008 3:53 am |
Sorry for the misunderstanding. Please accept my apology and congratulations on you success. You know of the big book and the 12 step program. I wish the answer were as easy as yours appears to be
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