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The Haunting of Mr. Joe's Hot Tub I am the typical Libra and not comfortable with emotions. I am also cosmically designed for partnership and when I love I don't do it half-measures. When the one that I love tells me that I'm not worth loving, it feels like a knife has been stuck in my Psyche , twisted and literally tearing my soul apart. First the tears are frozen and eventually it reaches the point where I can't stop crying. When those uncomfortable emotions prevail, I surround myself by water. I walk in the rain and if there's an ocean - that's awesome. Lately, I've spent more time in Mr. Joe's Hot Tub than he ever does. My thought has been - Why don't I cross over into the SpiritWorld and Haunt Mr. Joe's Hot Tub. It's not the Creator's Will for Star to leave this world so Cry A River, Build a Bridge, Get Over It This is the second relationship that has gone Terminus since my divorce in 2002 and it's NOT going to happen AGAIN!!!!! It's like my last drunk in 1977 - I ain't doing another one. I am still a reasonably attractive woman and can attract men like a honeysuckle flower attracts hummingbirds. So if the Hummingbirds go to the pond looking for a Star - this is the message they get. Three Dates, a Trip to Monticello and MAYBE - we'll THINK about the wild thing. I wonder what the Texas Truckdriver would have thought if I told him that AFTER he drove halfway across the country to get me. He would have never even bothered to take the drive. That would have sure saved allot of heartache. Mr. Joe hates Monticello so we would have NEVER gotten together. Yea Ha!!!!!! The Texas Truckdriver has an abundance of five minute dates with the Lizards for forty dollars. It cost him an extra three dollars in change in they swallow. Mr. Joe needs a Magickal Trip to the Clue Factory and that is why I've decided to haunt his Hot Tub. The Christian Baptism is a symbol of Death and Rebirth so Why not take a lesson from the Christians. This Morning - I took off my clothes and climbed into Mr. Joe's Hot Tub. In the Name of the Maiden, Mother, and Crone - I welcome Death and Rebirth as someone worth loving. Dunk! Dunk! In the Name of Grandfather Creator and Mother Gaea, I officially haunt Mr. Joe's Hot Tub and send him on that Magickal Trip to the Clue Factory. I went under the water and held my breath long as I could which wasn't very long before coming back up. Soon will be Spring Equinox. I am planting Sun Flower Seeds all over Mr. Joe's Yard. By Beltain, Many of those seeds will merge as Sunflowers. Maybe Mr. Joe will figure out the message. Love will Bloom again and his Hot Tub will be haunted evermore evermore.  Abracadabra  |
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3/17/2009 11:33 am |
Something about this makes me want to say......"huh?" You need to do something to get this Mr.Joe out of your systom girl!! Tis' not healthy for you. Good Luck thumbs_up
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3/17/2009 1:09 pm |
Hi Star, I hate to say this to you but are you living your 12 step at all. You sound totally obsessed to me. You are obsessed by this Mr.Joe whoever he is. Is this a way for you, who has gone through so much to get to what is supposed to be happy contentment, life is to be enjoyed not endured, well, where are you gone in all of this. you are the most important person in your life, why are you behaving in such an immature manner. Gosh Star, If I felt like that after all your years of getting well, etc. I would go and get help. Your sponsor, (If you go to her and talk to her) musnt be able to help you. Self will run riot. If I were you I would remember the gratitude youfelt in the beginning for receiving the gift youreceived. Mr.Joe doesnt seem to be any sort of a gift and resentments can kill. 
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3/17/2009 1:39 pm |
I am sorry but you are making me laugh and I know you are sad. So I had to change my head space and try to get into yours. Do not focus on this average Joe Schmo.. better things are ahead for you.. Focus on you, because you deserve it!! thecatsmeoww The longest journey made in your life is from your head to your heart."
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3/17/2009 1:55 pm |
Something about this makes me want to say......"huh?" You need to do something to get this Mr.Joe out of your systom girl!! Tis' not healthy for you. Good Luck thumbs_up
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Mr. Joe's Hot Tub will be haunted with a GHOST! A very HOLY GHOST surrounded by Sunflowers.  Abracadabra
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Walk that man right out of your hair, and keep planting those beautiful seeds. It will all come right in the end
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