Blog : Are You Serious???????? Rant

1150 posts
12/6/2022 10:01 am

Are You Serious???????? Rant

So last night I get this text, "Hey, How you been?"

I know the person, so my brain goes to....'So you aren't getting any right now'

I spent a good long time not responding at all. I thought of blocking, I thought an F.U. , I thought of explaining why I just don't want to be a part of this persons world.
I know my place in his life and years ago, I accepted that place. I was a different person after two very abusive relationships, I had no self worth, no value.
Two years before my accident, he was in a car/semi collision that took his 's life and left him severely messed up. I took him to PT, shopping, helped with chores, listened to his feelings and grief....like any friend/GF might do.
When he was on his feet and feeling better, he was gone. Chasing some girl he felt was better. Then he got a ton of money for his accidents, and was having the party of a lifetime. On the road doing music, etc.....
He found himself alone around the time I was released to go home from my accident, so I was of no use. He decided to wait until I got "better". He did not offer to help me get to PT, or visit just as a companion, or even once shoot a text to see how I felt, how I was doing. He did message just before I went for all my surgeries, telling me he loved me and could we make it work. I said, "Sure, no sex for a year and we work on us and bonding"......So he left

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So it is the Holiday season and whoever filled that time slot the last few months has dumped him for better fare. Now here is the texting.....the keep in touching...the oh I missed you....
Now this morning, "Are you better now" " Can you go out"
Me (deep breath) (deep breath) (deep breath) .........type......."Yes, I am doing great. Glad to hear life is wonderful for you. Merry Christmas and the Best of New Years! I am very much healed." ....send.....block.....delete all conversations.
I think he wanted to know if I was better enough to strut about like a show pony on the arm of a narcissist. What happened....I had time to know my worth, to know that people who don't really care, don't really belong.
Am I never going to date again? Oh heck, I don't make it a week

. I have a weakness for handsome fellas....lol.
Don't worry, it was just a rant. I am just proud I did not cave in to it all, like I once would have.

TwilightSpirit 56F

1248 posts
12/6/2022 10:05 am

Sadly, I sometimes miss the man I once thought he was, but the reality, never was as good as the illusion.

Nileyears 71F