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Throw Back Thursday - Amends to Mum Step IX My Mum had a very troubled childhood thus as a result - my childhood was troubled. . We were both Hard of Hearing which can create a feeling of isolation. I turned to alcohol while she went to the boobie hatch on a regular basis. I stumbled into the 12 Step Community and gained tools to do better while all she got was the Thorazine Shuffle and shock treatments. Our relationship was troubled because of her anger control problems. My biggest regret in life is not being able to protect my siblings and failing to stand up for my father. He was just much as a victim of domestic abuse as any woman. Yeah Yeah! I know it's not a 's responsibility to protect siblings or a parent but it was hard to watch. Nevertheless, would I condemn my Mum to a lake of fire because of her shortcomings. Absolutely not. I just wanted her to get well. Making Amends does not mean, I am sorry. It can mean setting boundaries, airing grievances respectfully, clearing out negative energy, ad infiniutm. The opportunity came in 1995. I purchased her a plane ticket from Arkansas to California for my wedding. I was working but also purchased her and my b0ys bus passes. They took her to the beach ALOT!!! On the weekends - Hubby and I took her to the Clothing Optional Beach. She got to sit next to her naked -in-law I took her a Psychic Fair where she was introduced to her Guardian Angel. We went to the Ventura County Fair where both Grumpy and my Mum got in free as seniors. She played Bingo. Later, I took her to a male strip show. The next day, we went shopping for wedding attire. I saved a whole lot of $$$$$$ because I didn't have to buy a wedding dress. I should have bought her a great big towel when we arrived at the Nudist Resort for the wedding. She did wear the tree house tee-shirt on her plane trip back to Arkansas and wore it at her bowling game the next day. She moved to Las Vegas in 1999. First my grandmother was diagnosed with cancer and passed away a week later. My mother died suddenly and unexpectedly a few months later. I believe that healing can happen on either side. My mum didn't have an easy life but I am reasonable certain that she is doing better on the other side.  Abracadabra  |
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By the time I realized that I owed my Army Veteran Father an amends, he had already crossed over. When I was in Washington DC in 2013, I ran the War Memorials to honor him. He has turned out to be my guardian angel on many occasions since. Abracadabra
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Wow Starwomyn that is quite a life story. The only thing in my life that both my parents died young. My dad was 62 and my mother was 61. I was 23 when dad passed away and I was 26 when my mother passed. So basically I have lived most of my life without parents. It certainly made me independent and to depend on myself. I have a sister who is 2 years older than me and we have always been very close. I always had a place to go to and their door was always open.
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I understand that feeling of wanting to protect siblings and a parent from abuse, and thankfully my abusive step father passed away before my half brother and sister were very old. I believe the Lord has given me a gift of forgiveness for others, for which I am grateful. We made amends before he passed. Be a prism, spreading God's light and love, not a mirror reflecting the world's hatred.
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Lovely photo of your mother. Nice post, Star filled with sad and happy memories of a very interesting life. My father died in January age 96. My mother passed very suddenly age 67. She died the day before my brothers wedding. Needless to say it was a very sad and heartbreaking time for all the family.
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